27.
Tomorrow I turn 27, holy COW. Where does the time go? I know, I know… I am still a spring chicken but I certainly don’t feel like it as I creep closer and closer to 30. THIRTY. OMG. Mom and Dad… does it weird you out to have 2 kids almost 30?! Hahaha, okay that was mean.
I know many people who get really upset over age. They are not where they want to be or where they thought they would be. But who is really? According to my journal at age 7, I was going to be married with 2 kids at age 23. In the same journal, I also said that if I had a million dollars I would buy all the sour patch kids in the world and not share them. So I think it is safe to take that with a grain of salt, right?
As a child or even a teenager, I envisioned what my life would be like when I was in my late twenties and I thought I would be this incredibly different person. You know what? I am the same person. That’s the thing, we never really change. We improve, we grow wiser, we get more experience but we are always going to be immature kids at heart with big dreams. Why do we want to muffle those dreams and enter in to adulthood so badly? Why is it that we think we are going to have life figured out by a certain age? It is a journey, nothing truly ever gets figured out, no winning puzzle piece- just one hell of a roller coaster ride.
Does the thought of being 27 and not (yet) married or having kids on the way make me anxious a little bit? Sure, I am a woman after all. We have this stupid biological clock that ticks away at us saying “YOU ARE BEHIND!! YOUR MOM HAD TWO KIDS BY THIS AGE!!” Men, you are so lucky to not have that clock, it is so annoying. Sometimes I wish I could stomp on it. But to be honest, I don’t trust that clock one bit. It is a clock that was built by society, not by reality. Don’t rush into things just because you feel you are behind, it will happen when it is right. And the “right” time is different for everybody so don’t compare your life to others either.
If you really are upset with where you are right now, not in the job you thought you would be, not in the health you want or the body you want, or the money you hoped to make, etc. the list goes on. GUESS WHAT?!! I have great news for you. I want you to do something really quick first before I tell you though, ready? Take a deep breath in and out. Did you do it?
Do you know what that breath means? It means you are alive. You are here. Which means you have the power to change. You have the power to change your story. Don’t let another 10 years of regret pass you by, go do the things you love, chase after that dream no matter how crazy it is. This life is meant to be LIVED. This life is meant to bring you happiness.
I cannot tell you how many people say to me “You have a good life, I wish I had your life”. I hate to say it, but if you are saying that to me or anybody else, you would not be happy in my life or anybody elses’ life you are comparing yours too. I have a good life because I am thankful for it and because I do things I love. Plain and simple. If I had to pick up and move somewhere different tomorrow and I had to start all over, I would still be this happy. Because I make that choice everyday. When the sun is shining and I have a good cup of coffee, I choose to be happy. When I am running late and nothing is going my way, I choose to be happy.
I am so thankful for the 27 years God has given me and I hope that I have done something good in those years to make him proud. I also hope that I am on the right path to continue to make a difference and to inspire others, as that is what I live for 🙂 It is okay that we are not where we thought we would be, as long as we are happy with where we are. I hope that my 7 year old self is not dissapointed that I have not yet been married or started family yet, but hey I still love sour patch kids…does that count?
Stay blessed in the mess 😉
