Still Trying to Slow Down

Remember how I told you one of my big resolutions for 2015 was to SLOW DOWN?  A weird goal to have I know, but in order to stay balanced and happy; it was something that I needed to intentionally set out to do.

Well I must confess, this has been hard. Anybody that knows me knows I move a million miles a minute as a natural pace.  It has been a hard habit to break and quite frankly it seems to be everyone’s pace now a days which makes it even harder.  It has been a process of enjoying that free time to write, be in the silence, to read etc. and being fully PRESENT in my daily tasks which is how life is SUPPOSED to be. Not filling up every blank space with something just because. Despite how good this is for me, it still is a struggle.  Before I sit down to read my devotionals and write every morning, I even get really restless and shaky.  It takes me a few minutes to ease into the art of being comfortable in the silence, listening to my mind and listening to God. Because all I want to do is get up and go go GO! It is as almost as if I am learning new depths of myself that I never knew before; and it is forcing me to work through things in a much different way, a healthier way!

In the month of January, I felt really good about what I was doing.  I felt centered and I felt calm. Then February hit, stress at work and a huge pending change set me off a little bit.  I still participated in my morning rituals, but they were a little more rushed in hopes of getting to work early to get ahead, as it is the beginning of a very busy time.  So as a result my day felt rushed and I began to feel off centered again. A passage from Simple Abundance, puts it perfectly…

“If you frequently feel as if you are about to spin off this planet, it’s probably because you are. I know of a woman who will begin to brush her teeth only to leave the bathroom to start making her bed while she is still foaming at the mouth.  And why? Because out of the corner of her eye she saw the rumpled sheets.  Before she could rinse her mouth, she had flung herself into the next task.  Needless to say, a day that starts off this frenzied can only go from bad to worse.” – Sarah Ban Breathnach

Thankfully, I did a little reset this past weekend.  I spent time looking at the month ahead, looking at my tasks and goals, writing out everything on my mind and heart and made the intention to get back on track this March.  You see, I knew I had to do this because these next two months will be a little hectic not just with work….but we are MOVING!

We just bought a beautiful fixer upper home a few miles from our house now.  I will tell the story in a different post of how this came about as it is too good not to share and one more piece of evidence in my life that if you put your wants and dreams out there, God/Universe/whatever you believe in always delivers in the most amazing way.  But in summary, we need to put our current house on the market (which I am very emotional about), start working on our new house, Shain has two rehab homes he is currently working on that he needs to finish up and sell AND did I mention this is the busiest time of year for both of us? Thank goodness I finished my Masters when I did, what timing!

So despite the impending insanity the next 60 days will be, I am dedicated to keeping my center. To keep the pace slow.  To not overcommit and take that important time to myself.  After all, once these two months are done I am embarking on a solo trip to Peru! Talk about SERIOUS solo time! Then we have the whole summer to enjoy our new chapter in our new home.  I am excited.